I get very nervous and am scared of breaking down and things like that.

I think too much. I don't now how to handle my emotions anymore. I know to a certain extent, life is not gonna be the same anymore. Especially during this stage of my life. My room is in use. The house is hectic.. Mama and Baba's busy. Iman and Mamat never had time for me. and i'm just acting busy, layaning the guest frm table to table.  I cried to myself when i'm alone..I cant make this emotions stop. I'm gonna miss them. I really will.

I guess nobody is ever ready for this kind of thing.

This coming 2 weeks will be hectic.. Family frm Saudi, Yemen, Indonesia, Batu Pahat are already coming..

Ya Allah I'm Nervous.

Is it true Sorry seems to be the hardess word?

We meet hundreds of strangers everyday. But it’s only one in a million chances that one out of the hundreds that later becomes your bestfriend. That’s what happened to me, This best friend of mine, her presence has always been well-liked by others. Cheerful, funny, Loud, Understanding, Caring , beautiful ( Plus Point ), humble and of course her trademark would be crazy! Forever ambitious and determined. Good listener as well as advisor. Great motivator and very optimistic. I could go on and list the other 1001 good points about her.To cut it short, she’s the kind of friend that any other would love to have. She's my one and only Shalini.

Eventhough we're of different race, religion ... that has never been an issue..Infact, she respect me for who i am.. me, melted!

I like how yesterday started off, but it ended miserably. A painful truth indeed for a fact that its not gonna be the same anymore.. The tears shed just proves alot. One thing for sure, she’s a great friend, not only to myself, but to everyone else that she knows. I'm not ready for her to leave, yet. I never thought that this matter gonna affect me this bad. I’m distracted and my mind’s not at ease. I’ve never felt this way towards a friend. Feeling terribly lost.

Tmr's gonna be the day ill hold you soo tight! Im gonna cry.. I know i will..I love you Lini..The past have has been amazing with you around..I'm gonna miss you!

I wished there’s something I can do to make you stay. Just to spend the last month with me. Probably a little longer at least so that we could make the best use out of it while it last. You have made such a huge impact in my life! I remember telling you 'lets get married at Melaka' hehe..

You hold a special place in my heart. I’m gonna start counting down till the day you gonna return to Singapore on the 17th and I hope by then there’s something that I can show/tell you that will make you feel proud.

Hugs and many many many kisses..Looking forward to tmr (not the part where you had to leave ) but when i meet you...

( I'm crying!!)

To end this, sorry goodbye seems to be the hardest word

I love you!